January 14th 2020
Thankfulness – growing is hard work, but I love it!
Step 1 (capture thoughts) – Revelations 22:1-2 The leaves of the trees of life are for the healing of all the nations. Still feeling sick – on day 7… It’s really taking a tole on my spiritual connection – yet I press on know that God is doing work within me.
Step 2 ( Focused Reflection) – The thoughts I build within me are for my healing or for my destruction …. I am sick of feeling sick – but even that thought is leading me to healing or defeat.
Step 3 (journal) – praise and worship from a healthy place is easy, from a sick and warn down place it’s very hard. so many people are living from a chronic place of sickness and feelings of being warn down. The process still needs to rise up. When our flesh is afflicted there seems to be blocks of connection to God, probably because all we can hear is our pain and discomfort. That is why we must always work on our thoughts and praises so that when our flesh is crying out – when it’s feeling weak – our default place needs to be a place of praise and worship…
Step 4 (pray and listen) – Rest and sleep
Step 5 (active reach) – rest, sleep
Extra Journal Entry
Being sick has really allowed my mind to go. I’ve been working very hard at taking my thoughts captive and replacing them with scriptures which is perfect, but i’m forgetting to accept my feelings and ask for the Holy Spirit to heal me. I am crabbily listening to a lecture on self-love for school and it’s really good. it stirred up a huge piece of truth I haven’t been applying – love yourself without shame.
Be so bold to know that I am worthy of live and that other people’s opinions don’t matter as much as God’s opinion of me and me doing what is right for God and repentance when I make mistakes. I am sick of grovelling for approval and for people to not be upset with me. Honestly, I give my best every day and some days my best kind of sucks… and if that makes people upset, well that’s not a me problem, it’s a them being selfish problem. Everyone is living out of a place of a broken heart if they don’t have their lives anchored in Christ. I know the truth now and it’s time I stop living from a place of a broken heart! I know that God is with me.. I need to live that way. I am joyful and playful and loving at heart and this can come out as I love myself enought to ask for help and support and turn to God. To live unoffendable and to give fearlessly.
I choose to boldly love myself as a daughter of God – I am saved and have more things to be thankful for than I could ever hope for – so no more complaining – no more looking at the brokenness I carry – it’s time to view life through the lens or gratefulness.